life on the fence

a day late

do you ever get the sense that you're a little on the slow side? it's funny how life seems to come in cycles. i tend to measure my age by where my friends are in their lives. in high school, the life indicator was my friends beginning to pick their colleges and careers. in college, my friends were dating and planning their futures. by graduation, a lot of them were marrying off. now i'm caught in the baby loop where i seem to be buying more baby gifts than loaves of bread.

i, however, have tended to struggle with keeping pace. not that i'm complaining, after all, how can i be discontent with the way things have worked out for me? i may have waited longer than others to choose my college, but that didn't stop me from having a great college experience. i may not have dated much in high school, but that didn't stop me from finding a great husband. i may have married later in life than some of my friends, but that gave me the chance to experience different jobs and travel abroad. i hold my friends' babies and hope that we'll have one soon, but that doesn't stop me from enjoying the extra time and freedom we have right now.

every once in a while i let my mind wander to the 'what ifs'. what if things had been different? where would i be now? what would my life be like? if you've been with this blog for long, you know my favorite comparison is life to the choose your own adventure books. you get to the end of a chapter and are posed with several choices. your decisions guide what the next chapter will be. so far, i've a had a pretty good read.